My almost near death experience and jumping parallel realities… ? ?

My almost near death experience and jumping parallel realities… ? ?

On the topic of near death experiences, jumping parallel realities and weird shit going down these days… ;)

In case you’ve wondered why I’ve been so quiet in the last couple of weeks, it’s because I’ve been sick and the last few days in too much pain to speak.

Quick backstory:

End of August I left my apartment in the Netherlands, sold pretty much everything I owned, gave all the donated money to two wonderful organizations:
Wadi (giving support to women in Syria who escaped ISIS) and Cureblindness.org (restoring eyesight for the needlessly blind: “25 dollars – 10 minutes – 1 life changed forever.” Check ’em out).

A week ago I flew to Boulder for a David Deida event + to reunite with friends and creatives…

Times of transition and emotional detox…

I generally feel über healthy but for the last two weeks been sick with earaches and crazy swollen throat/tonsillitis.

I thought I could heal it with great vibes, water fasting and herbal supplements – and also trusting my body’s capacity to heal and detox whatever it needs to – but a few days ago my throat got way worse, could barely sleep or speak because of pain and swelling…

Two days ago we went to the doctor here in Boulder and he said that it was the worst swollen tonsils he’s seen in years, diagnosed it as “peritonsillar abscess”, told me that it was so swollen it was pushing into the airways and if left untreated I might die in my sleep within a few days, or leave me with a messed up throat for the rest of my life.

So yeah…

As he was saying this I felt no fear of death, but waves of gratitude and a tremendous amount of tenderness for the gift of life in this body how how healthy it is in general.

The doctor didn’t even charge me for the checkup, since I didn’t have any health insurance, and it might cost a couple of thousand dollars to get treated. HIs words were “This one’s on me – you’ll spend enough money at the hospital. Good luck…” (This turned out quite differently – watch the video below for details.) 

So we went straight to the emergency room where I was very well taken care of, they gave me painkillers that felt kinda like mild MDMA ;) then stuck some needles into the abscess and pulled out an impressively disgusting amount or nasty stuff that filled a whole syringe. Crazy painful but so good to have it out! Yikes!

My friend Kelly Love was with me the whole time and we both stayed super cheerful. Everyone – including the young hot male nurse and the very skilled Doctor Hunter – were mega friendly, happy and helpful.

On top of all of this Kelly and I made it juuuust on time for the event with David Deida, starting the same evening, which was the main reason for me flying over here from Amsterdam!

 TLDR ;) Jump to…

◯ ► ▻ This whole story for me is a symbol of the simultaneous fragility and strength of the human body, and perhaps most importantly:
Our always present ability to shift into a parallel reality where things work out amazingly, when we stay in a vibe of gratitude and appreciation.

And I can speak again! Feeling immense gratitude for all the lovely people at the hospital, and most of all for the support this last week of Kelly and Ryan. You guys are the BEST!!!

Also: thank you all for your support, messages and comments here and on facebook.?? 
This afternoon I filmed a video about what I learned through the brief but intense illness (aka necessary detox), coming up against limiting beliefs and dissolving them, and how to choose our reality. Plus a heads up about upcoming events:

I’m curious to hear who else has experienced something along the theme of something seemingly going “wrong”/weird – or perceived challenge turning into triumph or simple gratitude…

Leave a comment right here.

Peace out. And thanks for reading this novel of a post ;)

Ronja Sebastian


P.S. Here in Boulder I also met up with Toby for the first time since we got divorced almost a year ago. And: met his new love for the first time ever. Very deeply healing.
I’m not gonna go into it here but you’re welcome to check out the original facebook post here.


Signup for free weekly tips, tools & inspiration
+ get a VIP offer to join
the Sensual Yogini Online Academy for Women.

Just enter your First Name + favorite Email here below:

(Love. Respect. Privacy. 0% spam.)


  1. Tiga-Rose September 12, 2016 at 10:19 am - Reply

    Snap!! Very happy you’re mending, beautiful one ?❤️?

    Had an almost identical experience after getting rid of almost all material possessions and moving county.

    When I arrived in turkey, the doctor said I needed them taken out immediately – we negotiated antibiotics (first time taking them in my adult life, I think!), and I healed in 3 days and had an amazing time after that.

    Now I think about it, similar but less severe tonsillitis when I did the same thing and moved to Honduras, and then again when I let go of 9/10s of my stuff and moved to Thailand.

    Maybe the rush of release and purging is too intense?! Cleansing junkie that I am ??❤️

    • Ronja Sebastian September 12, 2016 at 10:29 am - Reply

      Thanks honey! Yes, our bodies are amazing, huh? :)
      Warm hugs, and enjoy Thailand!

  2. Jeannie Marie September 12, 2016 at 10:23 am - Reply

    Your accepting out(& in)look through it all is so tremendous! No wonder you didn’t pass & are healing so fast. Can only imagine what messages will arrive through your transformed throat/voice for & with others! Enjoy your next sparkly chapter!

  3. Johanna September 12, 2016 at 10:24 am - Reply

    Wow, dear Ronja, it touches me , everything you write and also it brings new awareness about this possibility of healing… awesome. Glad that you recovered and got such wonderful help ☺ So, have a great new chapter in your life in Boulder Ronja !

  4. xj. September 23, 2016 at 8:48 pm - Reply

    Lovely Ronja,

    Congrats!! So happy your alive and well! Big shout out to Love and Ryan for taking such care of you. Thank you from my heart to yours. I too ended up in the hospital during that time frame. Weird thing is, I ate and within 10min started exploding out BOTH ends!! It took a day and half for me to monitor and realize my body was not going to recoup. I go in. CAT. BOOM! Excuse me? Heart? Weird? Oxygen? OK.
    All I can say is Royal Treatment. I got every organ in my body a complete “Clean Bill Of Health” I spent the last 9 years in a very drudgery path of Divine Intervention and my physical body took one hell of a beating. So, this last time I was in, I was astonished and quiet pleased I too survived death… many times over. We Win!!

    Always love to watch you grow and shine
    All My Best AS Best I Am

    ps. I’ve noticed my process time of digestive is within the hour and not overnite when my body needs meat.

    • Ronja Sebastian September 29, 2016 at 10:00 am - Reply

      Thanks Xj, that’s a pretty cool story too :) Glad you’re still walking and talking ;)
      All the BEST to you xoxo

  5. Peggy October 6, 2016 at 3:04 am - Reply

    I know what you speak of. In January I was laid off and in May diagnosed with breast cancer. I am so grateful that I do not have my job (or a new job) that I would have to support and can focus on healing. I live in a city with the finest cancer doctors (Houston) and received a nice severance which has tided me over during this time. I am a very lucky girl – with plenty of friends who are supporting her in prayer and in life. This is a blessed time in my life. I have learned to focus on what I have and not what I don’t have. Plus I got away from a very toxic co-worker. Yeah!

    • Ronja Sebastian January 15, 2017 at 1:20 pm - Reply

      Thank you for sharing Peggy! I’d warmly recommend staying clear of any chemical deodorant and stop wearing a bra.
      Also, check out “The Journey” by Brandon Bays, and google about organic lemon in combination with bicarbonate. It’s apparently so much more effective than chemotherapy.
      Good for you about all of the new discoveries! I’m celebrating with you and wish you deep healing.
      Ronja Sebastian recently posted..RADICAL TENDERNESS – because self-judgement is so 2015

  6. Daniel Morgan January 11, 2017 at 12:58 pm - Reply

    Don’t forget to thank GOD for the second chance of living in this world. You still have a mission to do. So glad that you are alive and kicking!

Leave A Comment

CommentLuv badge

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.